good or God's best??

This is kind of part 2 to the blog post I did a couple of days ago about the healing God did in my heart at Colour conference. I have seen so many results of that in my daily life but one result was that I am ready to say yes to God about something that has been on my heart. For the moment Jaden is doing distance education and it is mostly going ok, but I did sense when the option first came up that God was giving me that 'good' option because I was reluctant to go with the option I thought He was directing me too, which was to go back to home schooling. I had originally planned to always home school Jaden once we started doing it, but am very glad the school option was available for the busy season I had last year of 2 babies and postnatal depression, I lost sight of that vision however because I got caught up in just feeling so overwhelmed as a mother. Not just the normal overwhelmed of when all the kids are cranky, dinner needs cooking and the rain just poured on my washing, I mean the overwhelmed of 'I just can't do anything right' and 'I don't want to be here anymore.'

The thought of working out a high school curriculum and being 'stuck' at home trying to work through it with a rather exhausting child on top of the busyness of 2 litle ones felt like a burden I did not want to bear and I thought God was ridiculous for even suggesting it!! But what a difference an encounter with God makes!!! I do not feel overwhelmed, exhausted or trapped anymore, I feel excited, blessed and privileged that not only has God entrusted me with these kids but He trusts me to teach them what they need to know as well, not just about reading, maths etc, but about God and life and living with passion and purpose! I really caught a sense at Colour from both Lisa Bevere and Bobbie Houston of the eternal importance of raising our kids  and even though I knew that before, the significance of it really grasped my heart, and I was reminded that God will equip me for what He calls me to do.

Jaden definately needs a different approach to maths and even in other subjects I can see how hours of traditional school bookwork does not play to his strengths at all and he rarely retains much of the information. I can tailor school to the ways he learns best and help set my son up for the future by giving him an education that 'gets him' and I am really looking forward to it. And the amazing thing is that I don't feel limited at all by having more responsibility, I feel energised, peaceful, that this is part of my calling in God, wow, I so didn't get that before. The speaker at Colour I mentioned in my last post, Craig Groeschel, spoke about his 6 kids and his wife who homeshcools them (his whole family were there at the conference) and it really resonated with me again about it being a calling from God, not one that everyone has, but I know it is what God has asked of me and one thing I have learnt from many years of fighting God is that His plans are best, and what can seem 'good' is never as good as God's best!!! So over the next few months I will be making plans and getting ready for registration so that next year we will restart the Greehalgh Christian school (my husband informs me he is the principal LOL) and I can't wait :-)